The unimportant musings of a partially insane woman
I guess lately my relationship has been forcing me to examine why I have a hard time trusting people.
It’s been difficult to deal with spending every day with A and then suddenly having to only be content with his sporadic texting because of my time in MI over the summer. His communication isn’t fullfilling and because I can’t read his body language, I get frustrated very quickly. I’ve tried talking to him about it and he has made an effort. But undoing an entire lifetime of teachings is difficult and he lapses easily.
This week he’s taking a trip to TX for Burning Flipside. He’s going with two guys friends. One, I’ve met and the other I know next to nothing about. The one I have met, K, I’m not fond of at all. If given the opportunity, I’m not secure in the fact that K wouldn’t encourage A to ‘participate’ in activities. And because there has to be something wrong with my thought process, there’s a part of me that isn’t sure if A would say no or not. Maybe this is what sparked all of my feelings.
Let me make this part clear, A has never given me a reason to think these things. His communication skills suck, yes, but he’s never indicated that he’s interested in anyone else.
So, why do I have this nagging fear? My own insecurities? Is there a strong portion of me that thinks I’m not worth another person’s time? Most of my relationships (both romantical and friendship) end fairly quickly. I move a lot and I feel that impacts some of my thought processes when it comes to my personal relationships. More and more, I realise I have trust issues, without having an actual reason why. He hasn’t given me one. I’ve never been heartbroken before. So where does it stem from?
If his communication skills are what spark my insecurities, why is that? I’m used to a lot more involvement in my relationships. My best friend and I talk on a regular basis and she answers questions in a full way where I feel like we’re both honest and open with each other. Maybe I’m missing that in A’s and my relationship.
Or maybe I’m projecting my own thoughts and feelings into this relationship and expecting him to know how to fix me. But he can’t. I have to be able to fix myself.
A well dressed man is as attractive to me as a shirtless man with a six pack
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What makes mothers all that they are?
Might as well ask, “What makes a star?”
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It will take just 37 seconds to read this and change your thinking..
Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.
One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.
His bed was next to the room’s only window.
The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
The men talked for hours on end.
They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation..
Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.
The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.
Although the other man could not hear the band - he could see it in his mind’s eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.
Days, weeks and months passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.
She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.
As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window besides the bed.
It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, ‘Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.’
Epilogue:
There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.
Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.
If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can’t buy.
‘Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present .’
The origin of this letter is unknown, but please pass it on.
Share it with friends and tag them so the cycle continues … Do not keep this letter … You could change a life too
-> i was literally crying reading this :’(this is beautiful <3
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things i haven’t learned in high school
- how to pay bills
- how to buy a house
- how to buy a car
- how to apply for loans for college
but thank jesus i can graph a polynomial function
the worst is when you forget how to graph a polynomial function and the other pressing issues still arent resolved
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thanks for breaking my heart into a million more pieces, jeeze.

After changing to fit into society, you are eventually going to want your old self back sooner or laterThis. This is powerful.
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The Cycle of Abuse Illustrated Through Single Photos and Multiple Models
Statistics show that 70% of people who are abused as children will grow up into adults who will in turn abuse children. A recent awareness ad campaign by Mexican organization Save the Children shared this fact in single photographs that are both creative and difficult to stomach.
The advertisements were originally published back in May 2012, and were created by Mexican agency Y&R and photographer Ale Burset.Each one uses five models showing one individual at different stages of life. In the foreground, the individual is experiencing abuse as a child. Older versions of the abused child grow up as they walk across the background of the frame, and turn into the original abuser by the time they walk a full circle.
“70% of abused children turn into abusive adults. Donate at savethechildren.mx,” the advertisements say.
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Bibury, Cotswolds, England
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Stephen fry. Stop it.
You are clearly being too smart. You are not of this Earth.
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It’s that time of month again… you know what that means…
BEST DESCRIPTION OF A PERIOD I HAVE EVER SEEN IN MY ENTIRE LIFE
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